I made a bingo card to try and get my shit together

So, I had a bit of a wobbly start to the year. I went a bit mad trying to create a physical calendar to block out all of the things that I wanted to do and try and figure out what I had time for. That was an experience. Is this exercise even helping me? Is this all for not? Here she is. And in January, I also found myself on a park bench in Zurich having a cry and a bit of a meltdown. So, that's where I'm at. And that was about lots of things. It was about still not being pregnant after a year of trying. Feeling like I'm in limbo with other areas of my life until I get pregnant. And in that limbo, not feeling like I'm able to make big decisions or big commitments because I don't know what the future holds. And then also just having massive decision fatigue after having made a huge decision with my career the year before and just not wanting to make any more decisions other than I would like to have another baby now. That's a big decision. Why do I have to keep making more decisions? But hello. Hi, I'm Hannah. Welcome. We like to overthink and overshare here. So come on in. If you are new here and you want more videos about finding joy and play in adulthood and parenthood, then please subscribe. So, I normally love beginning of the year goal setting. I know it's not for everyone, but I just love new year, fresh start, setting goals, like reflecting, looking forward, all of that. I love it. But I just couldn't do it this year. I couldn't do it. I had no idea what I wanted other than just to immediately get pregnant. And I didn't want to have to figure it out.